Honestly I dont even know who I am anymore these days. I dont know what Ive become. I used to be so driven and focused especially when it comes to my studies. Often if i didnt do well I'd say to myself " serve u right, u didnt give it your best". Now, when i get bad results I just say " fuck this shit, Im going to bed". So much contrast, huh ? I used to spend hours and hours at my study table. If I dont understand a certain chapter or subject, I would actually make it a point to go meet my tutor personally to explain to everything from A-Z.
I really dont know what has gotten in to me. Perhaps I used to have a desired target. I really wanted to enter University Malay. I really wanted a scholarship. Now that i already got a scholarship and im already doing my degree, all im aiming for is a job and everyone keeps telling me that your pointer doesnt really matter. I know its stupid and ridiculous of me to organize all sorts of activities to polish up my soft skills but still lack in my academic achievements. I should really put my life back into perspective. Im targeting to be a CEO by the age of 40. I hope to be able to do something with WWF and help endangered animals.
Back then i was still as playful as I am today. I used to never do my homework but yet when it comes to tests and exams, I would still score. Come on Ashee, if uve done it before, u can do it again. Just push a little harder this time. YOU CAN DO THIS!!
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