That one boy.

*emo post alert!*

I think every girl will eventually have that one boy who is going to leave her heartbroken up to the extend where she promises herself she will never let her heart feel that kind of pain ever again.


I went through mine.(or is going through mine, rather).  The kind of pain that i went through will never make me believe that theres such thing as true love,for now at least. How can i trust a boy to never hurt me when the person i trusted with my life crushed  me so bad and isnt even willing to help me put the bits and pieces together? Because of that, im afraid of love, Im afraid to give commitment and im afraid of getting hurt again. I dont even want to have boy best friends anymore cause im afraid history will repeat itself. See, thats how much i got hurt. Its up to the extend where i fear of even getting close to a guy cause im afraid that he's gonna leave me hanging.

They say time heals.I must agree with that. Ive gotten a lot better since the last time i got hurt. But i still cry at night. I still have flashbacks. I still long to have that kind of feeling again. But i cant, i have to limit myself. I built walls around my heart only to save and protect me.